I’m honestly hoping that if I complain about this here I will finally get some results…
It’s been over two weeks since I turned in my latest urine samples for Cushing’s screening and I’m still waiting to hear from my doctor. The results have been in for a while but my doctor is too busy to review them. I’m hoping this means she’s not too concerned and that it’s not Cushing’s. And then I can say, “It’s not a toomah!” (Haha, the kid at 0:03 looks like a young Aaron Rodgers!) But with heightened cortisol levels, it’s extremely difficult not to worry. This prolonged stress is not good for the body! I’m ready to do whatever I can to get my cortisol levels back to normal!
My skin has been freakishly hot to touch lately and it makes sleeping for more than 2 or 3 hours impossible. I usually don’t remember my dreams but they’ve been rather vivid lately, nightmare-ish. Last night I woke up thinking someone was breaking into our apartment and, at any moment, would enter our bedroom to kill us. Despite being ridiculously tired and half asleep, I kept my eyes peeled on the door for who knows how long. I would slowly drift back to sleep only to wake up again with the same feeling, gotta keep my eyes open!
With my crappy sleeping patterns, it’s no wonder I’m always tired and lacking energy, but sometimes I feel shaky and weak to top it off. I’m still flipping out about little things that really shouldn’t stress anyone out. After the stress response subsides I often teeter on the edge of depression…beating myself up for reacting the way I do. It’s extremely frustrating not being able to control your own emotions.
I had myself a good cry fest last night. If I can get stressed over little things, imagine what happens when someone you love has a few choice words for you.
Sticks and stones may break my bones but words
will never do hurt me…especially when my cortisol levels are high!
I’ll spare you of all the drama and details but you gotta love having a dysfunctional family!
8 Days until my 2013 Yooper Vacation! It’s my time to relax and have fun, and I’m not going to let this incident impede on it!